With a little bit of anxiety and a little of excitement. There I was on my way to admission. What I didn’t expect was the covid test and blood tests being taken at the beginning of the procedure. There I was in the room filled with so much fear and a part of me wanted to turn back and just go back home. In the moment I thought to myself ; “is this what I have to go through to get better”. It seemed a whole lot more painful to get the healing than it was to just live with my pain. I closed my eyes with tears in my eyes and I said “God I don’t want to do this anymore, I’m scared, what did I get myself into?” Under the same breath I whispered “God is with me, I am not alone, he is facing this with me, God you are always with me” a sudden whisper and a sense of peace, said “Do not be afraid for I am with you”. I felt a sense of calm come over me and I didn’t even feel the needle go in. I was overcome with relief and confidence that I can do this. I don’t want to give too much away of my life right now but I just wanted to tell you guys that you have to face the difficult moments in life when they come your way. Just know that you will get through it. Don’t let fear hold you back from experiencing the love of God and his grace in the moments of difficulty. It usually feels like darkness but when facing the difficult moments in life with God there’s light. Sometimes we have no choice but to face the uncomfortable painful moments in our life but when you come to battle its important to remember the words and the promises of God. Know at all times that he surrounds you and gives you the power and the confidence to get through anything. Yes, sure some things you will do trembling but know that Jesus is holding your hand through it all.
I cried out to you in my distress, the delivering God, and from your temple-throne you heard my troubled cry. My sobs came right into your heart and you turned your face to rescue me.
Psalms 18:6 TPT